after paintings by Philippe Vasseur
You were home asleep
so you arrived only as a sketch
on my afternoon.
I walked away as you sat
looking at the sea.
I really want to be with you
and I walked away.
*
I dreamt my lean dog
died while I was far away
because someone
shocked me
by thinking I was cruel.
My lean retriever is a dusty one lane
road, he disappears in being
alike. Weeks
after my misleading
dream, he’s been very
reassuring, appearing in outline
on every street I lonely walk.
When I wounded
my right foot he started
favoring his lefts,
appearing in being alike.
*
The rails my brother
always liked end broken by the sea.
After inviting me
over, he and his wife
keep talking to each other,
and I could be a photograph.
I took the train. Only now to I see
the rails curving around a bend
ended, we passengers riding
into our versions of life.
*
A man brushes
against another man down
at the port of call; he is unfinished
and that is the freight
the brother carries by being
complete. It figures that
this is how I’ve learned to love,
lingering too long for a way
to be retrieved when I’m not gone.
*
No explanation is offered for
keeping broken track, yet here I am
keeping track of broken ties,
tense, furious. I have been trained
to disappear to reappear,
a perfect present for anyone
looking. I’m nearly there.
What I rail against is broken by the seen.